To my big sister, Karen - Happy Birthday! This post is for you!

Miss Karen,

Even before I married into the Grady family, you treated me just like a sister. From our first weekends together hanging out in Cedar to Thanksgiving in California and Christmas in Cedar ...we have had some fun times together...and through it all, I have gotten to know and love you and realize how lucky I am to have such an amazing older sister.

You have a kind and generous heart and are an amazing mother - Kate is beautiful and is growing up to be such a smart little girl. I love spending time with you and Mike (and of course Kate and Kraemer) and just wish you guys would follow us to Texas! Even though there are a few years between us, I count you as not only a dear sister, but also a trusted friend. Thank you for always caring for me and treating me as one of the family - it means so much to me! I hope you have a wonderful day off today and will call you later to wish you a happy birthday!

Love you!!

I thought this picture was too cute not to post!

Fourth of July Fun!

Mike, Karen, and Kate

Cute Kate and Kraemer

Ode to "Dried Plums" (aka Prunes)

After a couple of really depressing posts (sorry about that!) I would like to brighten things up a little bit, get a little goofy, and tell you all about one of my new favorite things.

Thanks to an introduction by my friend Elizabeth, me and my new beau the Sunsweet Dried Plum have lived happily ever after in a less than symbiotic relationship - I promise the happiness is ALL mine! A smile comes to my face every time I open each individually wrapped fruit gem and bite into its chewy yet juicy goodness and swallow it practically whole. I purchase the sweet little darlings as often as I can and usually devour them in less than 24 hours.

Now, all of this talk might conjure up some sort of memory about a commercial with two old ladies talking about their digestive systems and how all they need to be regular is to eat some prunes. Let me clarify, these are not your grandmother's prunes...these are pitted dried plums (that's what it says on the label!) and they are absolutely delish! I promise if you like dried fruit, you'll love them (but probably not as much as me!)

So, in honor of one of my new favorite things, I present an Ode to Dried Plums (please forgive my hamminess...I was alone and slightly bored!):

The end!!

Phobia! Part 5

6. Losing Kevin – It seems like this post has gone on forever, and I apologize for the previous cringe-worthy posts, but I want to end this string of posts on a serious note. Everything I have posted up until this point has been all fluff…I am only slightly afraid of any of those things…the only thing I actually fear is losing my husband, Kevin.

I think about it too often. My life has been, for all intents and purposes, perfect. From growing up in a big, happy family with good parents that could afford to provide for all of my needs and most of my wants (I never got that pony…) to going to college and meeting the perfect husband, I have gone from one seemingly cushy pillow to the next and have never had to experience life’s heartbreak and derision. Life, for me, has been a string of happy events culminating in my marriage to Kevin. But I have been told that life isn’t fair…and it has been more than fair to me! The only thing that could possibly equalize a lifetime of happiness with the lifetime of sorrow that the other half experiences is to take my husband prematurely. It has all been too good to be true, or to last, and I fear that it won’t….that some force in nature will dictate that I have used up my quota of happiness and will have to pay my dues by giving up the one thing that I hold dearest – Kevin. What is more cruel than losing the one thing in life you are convinced you cannot live without?

I try to calm myself down by saying that God would not purposely take him away just to make me experience unending grief, that a loving God wouldn’t do that… but it happens every day. Bad things happen to good people all the time. This is not to say that God does this on purpose. I know that He's not vindictive and that He has a plan that has provided for us to be together forever…I know that, but still, I can’t shake the fear that one day I’ll get a phone call that will change my life forever. Again, I apologize for sharing too much with all of you, but if I have to be honest with myself with what I fear more than anything else, it is the fear of losing my husband.

Blogging Tears

With Kevin out of town for three months, I have been trying to keep myself busy in the evenings so I don't get lonely and depressed and just waste my time watching bad reality TV. Well, so far, I have been mostly successful with time spent working overtime at the office, playing double headers on my company softball team, going to weekly internship-widow dinners at the Crawford’s and working on the business…but last night I thought I needed to just have a quiet night alone to catch up on blogging…what a mistake! After updating my blog and feeling pretty good about myself I decided to blog hop into some blogs of people I know from my home town but were never very close to. Looking at the pages filled with pictures of awesome vacations, beautiful homes, adorable children, fashionable clothes, and lots of “pretty” people, I entered the depths of despair thinking that these are the blogs of my peers and I have nothing compared to these girls.

As I continued to scroll through the lives of those I grew up with, I delved deeper and deeper into the “I have nothing going for me” zone and things didn’t get any better when I passed myself in the mirror and compared my round pale body to the perfectly sculpted body of these girls and started to cry. It is no use crying to yourself, however, so I called Kevin looking for the reassurance of my legally bound spouse who I am pretty sure is legally bound to boosting my self esteem! Kevin, of course, reminded me of how wonderful I am (thanks babe!) and how wonderful my life is, and he’s right. I didn’t admit this in between sobs on the phone, but I have an amazing life. I am madly in love with my husband of 2.5 years – he’s insanely funny, smart, motivated, and super adorable. He loves me more than anything and I likewise as well. We live in a great town and have awesome friends (here’s a shout out to all of my billysburg buddies!) and while I don’t have a house yet, I will soon enough and as my mother tells me, having to wait until you are 25 to have a house is nothing to complain about. No, I don’t have super fashionable clothes, but I do have a closetful! I want for little (except more clothes) and I am really happy with how things are. I have an amazing life right now and will continue to have a wonderful life in the future...Why, then, do I get SOOOO depressed? I really struggle with getting depressed and staying positive, but Kevin points out that these thoughts come at the end of a long day and are the product of an extended absence from my best friend/husband and that’s probably it, but I just wish I could snap myself out of these funks!

I really am grateful for everything and it is moments like these that I thank Heavenly Father for everything I have and especially for sending me a husband who understands me and can handle the rollercoaster of my emotions. I love you Kevin!

Dallas!!

Hello my blogger buddies! I have decided to take a break from phobia posts and give all of you an update on my latest trip to Dallas. Unfortunately, my first fun and fabulous trip to Dallas was not photographed (I brought my camera, but alas, forgot to shoot any pictures!) and can pretty much be summed up in two words - house shopping! We spent the whole weekend house shopping and drooling over floor plans and property...needless to say, both Kevin and I are excited to buy a home there (knock on wood) in the future.

With the home shopping out of our system, we spent this weekend trip hanging out and seeing some fun sites. I flew in Thursday evening and had Friday to relax and to do Kevin's laundry (I am the BEST wife!) while he was at work. At lunch time (with laundry finished, folded, and hung) I was able to meet Kevin at a fun local BBQ joint called Sammy's with one of Kevin's new attorney buddies from Gibson Dunn. I was eager to try some yummy Texas BBQ and I was NOT disappointed! Delish!

Here is the view from Kevin's office:

After a long lunch (2 hours!) Kevin went back to work and I went back to what I love to do best on vacation - NAP!

Hey babe!

I guess I made a good impression with Kevin's new buddy because he invited us over to his house to meet his wife and play games that evening. It is a lot of fun meeting and getting to know the people Kevin is working with this summer!

On Saturday, Kevin and I met up with his cousin and his wife for lunch at Bajio's (yum!) and then hit an associate party in the evening. At the party, I was able to meet most of the associates and their wives/husbands - everyone is super nice!

Sunday was filled with sleeping in and then going to the Dallas Aquarium...and I remembered to take pictures (and went a little camera happy, I might add!)

For your enjoyment!

Not bad for taking the picture ourselves!

The aquarium (it is really more like a zoo!) starts you off in the rainforest and gradually you descend into the deep abyss of the ocean...

Jungle Fever!

Getting closer to the ground...and the animals!
Behind the waterfall!

I spy with my little eye a crocodile (or maybe an alligator...who can tell the difference?)

We made it to the ground...and look what was awaiting us! Baby Crocs!

Aren't Leopards so cuddly?
Okay, I thought this was super funny...the flamingo's are fighting! What could they possibly be fighting over - who's the pinkest?

This is the one shot I got of the cute little penguins swimming..the rest of the penguins just sat on the rocks!

See! (and yes, the yellow stuff is pee...eww!)

We went under the water level to see some very cute and playful manatees being fed by a scuba diver...manatees look so sweet!

And then we went into the shark tunnel! (Yes, behind the glass with the hand smudges there are lots of sharks swimming!)

Okay, so this was really funny too. So there was a little area for this native dance performance and during the performance the eagle man (look at his headdress) took fire and started burning himself...not too smart! It looked like it really hurt and after the performance he said over and over again for the children to NOT try this at home and that he does get burned from doing this...and i had to ask myself, why the heck does he do it then?
Again with the fire!
We had a ton of fun at the aquarium!

After the aquarium and eating some much needed ice cream, we decided to stop by the spot where President JFK was assassinated and talk to the conspiracy theorists...these guys take this VERY seriously! So seriously, in fact, that they have decided to forego having real jobs to educate the public daily about what REALLY happened!

This may seem a little morbid, but I had to get a picture of Kevin standing on the "x" (yes, "x" does mark the spot) where JFK was shot. The thing is, as you can see, the "x" is in the middle of a busy freeway entrance and so Kevin had to dash into traffic to get this shot! I also ran out there, but I am declining to post the picture (not too flattering!).Here is a picture of the street (you can barely see the two x's on the ground...one is right next to where the car is driving and the other is just ahead of the car)
Kevin and I at the "grassy knoll" (behind us is the building where the government claims the shot came from...upper right hand corner, second window from the top)

Here's the building again...remember, second window from the top on the far right
We couldn't help taking our picture with one of the conspiracy theorists...if you ever go to Dallas, I am sure he'll still be there!

Phobia! Part 4

5. Throwing Up – I know I am not alone in this one…I guess you can say that everyone hates throwing up, but some of us fear it more than others. I am the type of girl that would rather stay sick than throw up to make my stomach feel better…I just hate losing control of my body...and then there is the taste, of course (sorry, that was gross!) This is one of the things I fear most about pregnancy…I just have this feeling (a sick feeling!) that I will have one of those throwing-up-every-morning type of pregnancies and my life (and Kevin's!) will be horrible for three months (if not more). Thankfully, morning sickness should cure me of my fear of throwing up (not my hate of it…that is impossible)and I will be able to vomit like a real woman for the rest of my life!

Phobia! Part 3

4. Scary Movies – The other day I was with some of my girlfriends and all of us came to the consensus that we hate scary movies! No, this isn’t really a fear, but somewhat related. I hate scary movies for the following reasons:

• I go to see movies to relax and be entertained, not sit on the edge of my seat with my face shoved into my husband’s chest and holding my ears
• I remember all of the scary images and when I am alone at night in the dark I think of them and freak myself out
• I always have nightmares
• I don’t pay money to be scared!
  

Thankfully, now that Kevin and I are happliy settled into married life, I don’t feel like I have to see all of the scary movies with him and instead send him to the theatre with his guy friends…he gets to spend time with the guys and I don’t have to have nightmares for a month just to make him happy (it is amazing what we girls do for the boys we love!)